感激再遇見...

沒想到一次的機緣巧合你我竟再重遇.

 

經過了這麼多年, 好多東西都應該面目全非. 感情本來就是這樣的奧妙, 分開了這麼多年那些感覺說回來就回來.

 

剛開始的時候, 你我都像老朋友一樣, 只想看看對方過得好不好. 你和她快樂嗎? 我和我的他幸福的很. 畢竟, 認識了二十多年,  在我年輕時的歲月裏面, 太多回憶有你的影子. 但故事聊開了之後, 我們都覺得錯過太多, 該遺憾的也太多.

 

錯過了時間.
錯過了這段感情.
錯過了所有的承諾.
錯過了終生廝守.

 

遺憾我的不辭而別.
遺憾我們不懂得好好珍惜.
遺憾我倆當時沒有勇氣.
遺憾我們當作毫無所謂.

 

現在, 再談感情也只是多此一舉. 如果值得珍惜的話, 當時就不會輕易放棄. 如果當時已決定不再繼續留守, 是因為我們都想把它留給回憶. 現在就不該因寂寞而讓它重新燃點. 有句俗語説, '有些事情在回憶裏是最美的 ', 我想永遠都儲存這一份美麗, 不想因為任何原因醜化了它. 我相信有一天你會感謝我今天的決定.

 

無論你我身邊是誰, 請讓我保存這一點美麗. 在往後的歲月裡每當想起你, 我依然是可以笑得很甜, 因為你帶給我的曾經是多么的美好.

 

 

你的號碼

手機裡一直都存放著一個電話號碼, 一個我永遠都不會再打出的電話號碼.

我問了自己好多遍,還有這樣的需要嗎? 手機都換了八台, 八台完全不同牌子, 不同功能, 一台比一台先進, 一台比一台優秀！ 但我始終如一, 始終沒有勇氣把你的號碼刪除. 好害怕連唯一能找到你的途徑也沒了, 我知道這又是我自欺欺人的一面, 總是天真的以為祇要還留著你的一點一滴, 以前的一切都有可能再延續...

其實, 靠這一個號碼聯繫著的思念, 呼吸, 回憶和愛是何等的薄弱. 輕的不堪一擊, 輕的一點也動彈不得, 似乎在秋天落下的黃葉, 被微風一吹就將身首異處, 無再落地歸根的機會. 我和你曾經擁有的一切, 現在也就剩下這一個號碼, 它是我們相愛過的證據, 它是我們記憶的泉源... 最重要的是, 它是我這些年來還能為你而任性的僅有理由.

等... 等我在那一天能再打給你的時候, 聽筒裡還會是你那熟悉, 溫暖的聲音嗎? 又或者, 你早就在分手的那一年把號碼換了... 這些年來都只有我孤軍作戰, 一個人在延續, 一個人在掙扎......?

Merry Christmas (Year 2011)

Today at 8:00am (Paris time), we safely landed Paris Orly Airport. The anticipation that built overnight on board of D720 is coming to a peak! After the immigration check-point clearance, we collected the baggage from carousel no. 2, then off we went with one Peugeot taxi to the Paris Centre.

Everything is so fresh and posh, even the taxi also using expensive continental car - Well, at least to our standard. Taxi fare cost us Euro30.00, the journey from Orly Airport to hotel + 2 pcs of is the luggage (Euro1.00 each).

Slightly after 9:00am, we arrived at Adagio Paris Tour Eiffel. Something that really worth me remembering of this trip is the warmth and friendly welcome that we received at the reception area, and a special highlight to the hotel - they ask no deposit for our room at all - room charges are all paid for before the trip. Usually in most Asian countries, even we have paid of all the room charges, they'll still ask for a minimum charge of at least a hundred a night (we have met one ridiculous one in HK, that actually ask for full payment of room charges + full amount of deposit!!), so this is really a pleasant surprise! - Well done, Adagio management!!

After a quick shower and rest, Honey and I went of to Rue du Theater, that's where our aparthotel is located, we walked around... it is a very quiet and peaceful residential neighborhood. Even though most of the shops are closed due to Noel, but we can see there are places to eat - Western / Eastern, place for groceries and pharmacies - quite complete. We came into this Chinese Restaurant which runs by a Chinese immigrant, he serves no-too-bad Chinese food! Well, how much we can ask for right? Chinese food in France! Being away from home, we feel really warmth seeing Chinese food & rice!! Hehe... Like I always say, I am very Chinese when come to food! We ordered 2 plates of rice - Honey had the Caramel Pork while I had Onion Stirred Fried Beef and, 2 pcs of fried pork spring rolls + 4 'ha gau' - as expected it is not cheap to have Chinese food in France - total bill cost Euro15.00 (almost BND26.00). But still, it settled our craving of rice! :)

After much walking, seeing that the shops are closed and nothing much to be explored here today, we hop on to a taxi and headed to the world's famous - Champ Elysees!

- 25/12/2011 (Sunday) @ Brioche Doree Cafe (one Parisian style cafe in Champ Elysees)

Christmas Eve (Year 2011)

A special Christmas Eve it is. Without fancy dress and make-up, Honey and I are at our traveling gear, getting ready to board AirAsia X D720 to Paris, France.

I have promised myself, for at least once in my life time, I will set my footprints on the Parisian soil, guess I am making it happen now... How excited!

So much so of the preparation - early purchase of air tickets (as early as March!), gone through the trouble of getting the visitors' visa approved, monitoring of the Euro rate to convert my BND and also not forgetting the thousand of hotels review that we have read through in the internet before settling down to 2 hotels... I know all of these are behind us now. We are finally here... Heading to the City of Lights, our dream trip.

We are now close to 3 hours to departure, at 10:05pm (now!), my heart is raving fast, anticipation is high as to what to expect of the very first French morning would brings? :)

Till my next update... Merry Christmas to all! :))

- 24/12/2011 (Saturday) @ LCCT International Departure Hall

思潮 . 神經

曾經很固執的認為愛一個人, 只要自己用心的去經營, 那一段感情就會開花結果. 愛一個人不是應該不在乎一切嗎? 盡能力的去愛, 甚至愛到遍體鱗傷也覺得自己是偉大的! 但現在的我卻相信愛情是沒有絕對的, 你努力的去愛, 並不代表對方就一定要為你張開雙臂. 他可以毫無理由的拒絕你, 甚至對你不加理睬也沒罪. 在這樣的情況下, 你再不舍得放手, 也只是坦然!

勉強的維持一段感情只會讓雙方都更痛苦, 學習放手, 也學習放開, 生活肯定會活的更精彩. 但天生固執的我, 要愛了好多回和用了好多年的時間才領悟到這個道理. 放開手不再去愛那位心愛的人, 固然是一件好難, 好痛的事, 就連這樣一個念頭都足以讓你心酸. 真式的去做時該以什麼樣的心情和該預備多少的勇氣? 很多時侯不舍的放開的並不是那位你認為不能失去的人, 而是和他所經過的一切, 是他給你的回憶, 好的, 壞的, 你都不想放棄. 因為這一些回憶填滿了你所有的思潮, 你歡喜, 哀傷的神經...