People come, people go.

I do not know where it begun, and I do not know how it begun...
You came into my life by surprise, you held my hands and became my friend.
So much precious memories we had shared, but now leaving me feeling all the pain...
You left me quietly, make me wondering what is the meaning of friend?

I could never understand, the true feeling in your heart...
For you've never open up yourself, talk to me like someone you can trust.
I have no holding back and given you, all my true self and my heart...
For I've always believed friendship is all about sincerity and trust.

I shall forget all the memories, move on to another page of my life,
To help myself start anew, I know I have to walk away.
People come, people go... Only time will tell when the another you will come into my life,
If there is no trust in our friendship, tell me what is the point to stay?

I wish your journey of life - happy, success and smooth without me,
Hope that your love ones will always be with you,
One night, if you look upon the stars and think of me,
Please remember that, once in your life time there were you and me...

Some Thoughts, Any Thoughts

Notice:

Tonight, no matter how hard I try, I just can't close my eyes, guess I've too much caffiene earlier. As I was looking through the documents in the PC just now, I found this article of which I wrote exactly 1 year ago in Dome Cafe. The cafe is gone now, but I am surprise and thrilled to find that, I still feel the same way I did one year ago about my work... The positive energy never goes away... The more I am stretched, the further I can go... :)

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It is Sunday again, 5th August 2007.

Hubby is working at The Mall, Gadong, for a Travel Fair organized by the Tourism Board of Brunei Government. I’ve been spending too much time alone, since yesterday. It is 5.15pm now, and I am still waiting for hubby in Dome Café, he hasn’t finished his duty yet, he is manning the booth and attending to customers, must be tiring and exhausting.

It has been quite sometimes since I last manned a booth during the time in CHC. It was never a good experience, visitors to the booth would expect I know everything about Canada and provide them with the finest answer possible. As the matter of fact, I should, but somehow, never would I have any interest to read more about this country. It isn’t that I dislike Canada, but I was “terribly pissed” by someone in the HC, which made me giving up trying on anything in CHC. Ah, forget about it! I am not going round the world to bring the story to you here! Haha! What is gone is gone! May those ‘bad memories’ stop haunting me again.

Gadong is considering the busiest place in BSB, as usual, it was packed of curious visitors to The Mall today. I made more than 10 turns and took me more than 30 minutes to found a parking, so you should know how crowded the situation is! Out of the cafés in The Mall, Dome is my favorite, despite the fact that the drinks and more expensive than usual and the air-conditioning seems never working, the environment here is quiet and peaceful. I might be loud and talkative, but whenever I am alone, I love to enjoy the tranquil of the air, no one to make too much noise to make me headache. It is always nice to be alone sometimes.

One might think that I am an introvert. But as the matter of fact, I love being with people, is just that the other side of me yearn to have some peacefulness whenever I am alone. I guess any busy working individuals will have this kind of feeling. After a whole week of hustling life, weekend is good to spend quietly in order to rejuvenate our energies! ‘

I am expecting for a busy week starting tomorrow, those meetings and trainings are lining up waiting for me. I managed to postpone 2 trainings until September, so at least I have 2 extra days which I can concentrate on my SOP. It is a scary thing to start another new month by seeing your SOP starts at -15 again… haha! But sometimes I think that it is actually quite fun. The more we do, the more the target get increased, the harder I would work to achieve it, if not because of this stretching way of work environment, I would never know how far I could go…

'Nin Jiom Pei Pa Koa'

Its sore throat, flu and cough again!

I've been slightly under the weather this week. It all started with a mild sore throat last Friday evening, then flu... then the whole "package" kicks in... one after another. After the flu is gone, then the "grand finale" will be cough. I hate it the most!

No professional doctor is needed, because I am always my own doctor when it comes to flu and cough. I drank lots of warm water, no cold fruits... and my family traditional, ever-trusted cough remedy - Mixing 'Nin Jiom Pei Pa Koa' with hot water and sip down slowly. It always works for me...

Today is exactly the 9th day... I hope the cough will go away soon. It is so bad that sometimes I can feel my chest pain when cough. I was actually feeling better already yesterday but then... Blame it all to the cold Kwai Fei Lychees drink I had last night during a birthday dinner for my colleague, Ms W. The drink was so tempting so I had a little more that I should and I should've less ice to go with it... after I returned from the dinner, the coughing just wouldn't stop...

It's time for a cup of 'Nin Jiom Pei Pa Koa' now to sooth my throat... Hmmm...

Hope I'll recover soon...

New puppy

Today at about 4:00pm, Brother Nam called me.

His friend is giving away puppies! Very kind and loving of my brother knowing that I am still mourning for the death of my puppies, he wanted to bring a new one for me.

It is an all-black, hairy, puppy girl... but I've a problem with it. I told myself I'll not adopt anymore puppies, it is very painful to see them die... Brother Nam is giving me a week time to consider, he thinks I really should bring this puppy home to fill the emptiness that I am feeling after losing Zhonnie and the other 2 puppies...

Should I or shouldn't I...?

Rest in peace - Zhonnie & 2 puppies

Last Friday night, 4 July 2008, we came home @ about10.30pm.

Unlike any other day, our house compound was exceptionally quiet... we don't see the puppies running towards our car and try to 'catch' us while we tried to enter the house... which they usually would.

Hubby and I suddenly had a very bad feeling, "something is not right!", "this can't be it!” bad thoughts kept playing in our minds but none of us speak a word. As we dragged out tired body to first floor of our house, my father-in-law was waiting for us in the living room... He came to us as if something serious had happened, then he told us: "all the dogs are death!"... I suddenly realized - the worse had happened! All the dogs? Did he mean our 3-year old Zhonnie & the 4 puppies?? Then my father-in-law said: "but one of the puppies ran away...”

My husband I went out to the balcony and tried to call the puppy home. As we stepped out to the balcony, I noticed that the puppy was next door, underneath our neighbor’s car. As we called "puppy... puppy...” it came running back home to us as if seeing its rescuer, we went downstairs to check on the puppy... it was fine, but it was the only one left (out of the 5-dogs-gang we used to have!)... Everyone was quiet, no one said a word. After making sure the only puppy was alright... Hubby and I took our shower and went to bed... without saying anything at all... we sad and angry; sad because our loyal dog - Zhonnie & 3 puppies were death, angry because someone near to our house has poisoned them!!!

The next day morning, Saturday, 5 July 2008 @ about 8am, hubby kissed on my cheek to say goodbye as he was ready to work... I opened up my eyes, heard hubby said..."2 puppies came back"... so I rushed out to see, 2 of them (1 male & 1 female) was underneath hubby's car, but 2 of them were badly poisoned, they couldn't move at all. So I thought to myself, at least 3 of them survive; I must do something to rescue them... fast! Seeing them suffering really break my heart, I rushed to the room, grabbed my hand phone and start calling any vet numbers that I know, finally I got hold of an Egyptian doctor - Dr Mamdoh. He came after half and hour, checked on the 2 puppies, gave them medicine and injections, Dr told me that if they can survive today, they would be fine... Just make sure the medicine is fed to them again at 5pm.

Since I still need to work that afternoon (SCB Ceramic Exhibition), off I left at about 12:00 noon. At work, about 4:00pm, I received a phone call from hubby that 1 of the puppies couldn't make it... that's the short-tailed female one (the 1 that hubby loved most). Nothing can be done, we have tried our best but the poison was too strong... Someone (our neighbor’s worker) has buried it for us... I'd choose not to look at the body; I just want to remember it as a happy and energetic puppy of which I adopted 4 months ago always.

Out of all the sad news, (we thank God) 2 of the puppies made it. They are still on medication, but recovering. I noticed they are not as cheerful and hyper as before, probably shaken badly by the incident of losing their friends. Dogs also need time to recover from the pain, what more hubby and I, losing our loyal Zhonnie of 3 years and 2 puppies that we adopted since infancy. I will never adopt puppies anymore, just can't bear seeing something bad happen to them, they are so helpless & defenseless...

We adopted Zhonnie 3 years ago from Seria and 4 of the puppies on 13th March 2008 from Lumut.

T I M E

The last time I wrote on my blog was October 2007... so much so happened within these few months but there are so little time for me to write all down.

Before the Christmas celebration last year, honey and I celebrated our 1st year wedding anniversary, then New Year came... one festival followed by another... and it's now July 2008. Time passes me so fast that I am only left with the bitter-sweet memories of all.

Recently, I was in a conversation with 1 friend, we were sharing about the 'best moment' in our lives; she said she hasn't learn the best moment in her life yet and she doubted will that moment ever come... I told her, THIS is the best moment of my life. Being a newbie of the 30 years-old, have a man that loves me, a healthy family, a satisfying (& stable) job, able to enjoy life as and when I like it... what else do I ask for? I bet an adult life is very much completed with these elements. You do not need to be rich to taste the 'richness' of life... what is more meaningful than having all the time in the world to live the life that you want? Many people are still chasing for this kind of luxury in life. Like the old saying goes, 'time wait for no one'... why wait for the best moment to come, while you can actually make it happen 'here and now'? I believe in living life to the fullnest (when you can), and love your spouse/partner to the fullnest (while you still can), many a time, one will only regret when opportunity is over. No point crying over spilled milk, love and treasure when you can... Be it your family, spouse, friends or even your colleagues... Don't always think that you are fated to be with this person then he / she will never leaves you, no one can be of greater power than HIM, who'll know what God's plans are...

You might think that I am very negative about life to having said that, but let me tell you... You will never know what's LOVE if you haven't really give it all to love someone... and you will never know what's LIFE if you haven't really give the time to live your life...! Don't just spend your time at work and ignore what's important to you. Take sometimes to love yourself and those around you... You'll find that, life is ever worth-living... it is afterall, a wonderful thing to do!